I should preface my post with the reality that my health generally is pretty good - my limitations are minimal and my mental abilities have not yet begun to decline. Maintaining my mind is a major consideration when dementia runs in my family. So I am blessed, blessed, blessed - over and over and over again to this point in life.
And, yet, I find little resentments creeping up because of a left knee problem that has dragged on for more than 8 years. It's a nuisance really. A torn meniscus that has had a surgical repair and a total of 4 long sessions of physical therapy, not to mention all the money spent on hot and cold packs, wraps and over the counter medications to support and sometimes mask the off-and-on symptoms over the years. I was cautioned by a Ortho doc years ago that you might repair a torn meniscus, but it can tear again and again.
Well heck, there should be a 'recall notice' or something on such a weak piece of equipment.
It is silly for me to go on so, when I have friends and family who have had full knee replacements, debilitating arthritis, cancer treatments, and/or died early because of serious illness. It is embarrassing to admit that I have just this little nuisance issue and I can't seem to accept that.
So why is it I have so little patience with this little (sometimes big) knee. I thought long and hard about this - my resistance to even one little medical limitation that can't seem to be fixed by anything medicine has to offer or by my own force of will.
My daughter would suggest that it is because I am an "Aries." Sincerely, I place no validity in this astrologic stuff. It is fun to read and try to compare it to personalities that you know, but is it true? I just can't buy it. And when I told my daughter that, her response ... "Oh mom, that is such an Aries answer." Haha!!
So I looked up my sign on the internet for this post and found this stuff.
So ... crap! That pretty much is me. Ok, to be brutally "honest" (one of my qualities), that statement is ALL me!! What to do ... what to do...
I have come to the passionate conclusion (a strength) that my left knee must belong to another sign! Yes, that is it. All of me is Aries except this stupid left knee and I am going to have to beat it into submission. And I will do so by continuing my leg exercises (which I hate doing by the way ... but no matter). My left knee is surrounded by Aries muscles and tendons. I will aggressively (a failing) continue those exercises because there is a physical challenge (a strength) there. I need to resist inactivity (a dislike) and remain determined (a strength) to make this knee fit into my of my body - a body that is Aries 'proud.'
I still don't believe in that Zodiac stuff! But if I have to be like any of those signs - I would have chosen Aries. Ha. I don't believe, I don't believe, I don't believe.
How's that for an Aries-attitude post!!