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Saturday, July 18, 2026

You Can’t Make This Stuff Up!

February is when I last visited this space.  I am not even sure why I am here now except that I still have a few kind readers who are left and maybe wondering - is she still with us?  I am.  And my husband, thank the Good Lord, is still with me as well.

The winter and spring has been bumpy to say the least. My husband began to feel poorly starting in October or November.  On New Year’s Eve had an aphasia event - a brief inability to put his thoughts into words.  No other symptoms, and although I did check him for a stroke the episode, it passed quickly. I decided that a trip to the ER on New Year’s Eve was probably not needed.   That episode, however, was later diagnosed as a mini-stroke or a TIA, so maybe we should have gone.  ERs are not healthy places to be during the winter - well maybe not anytime.  Once the diagnosis was made, however, it launched an avalanche of doctor appointments and diagnostic testing over many specialists.   

Initially it began with a visit to his primary doctor and a neurologist, but then expanded to a cardiologist.  The cardiologist’s testing and findings lead to establishing care with a pulmonologist.   

He now has COPD (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease, emphysema and chronic bronchitis) due to smoking earlier in life.  He quit in 1985 but the damage is done regardless.  Now he is on various inhalors.

And in April he had to have one of his surveillance EGDs with the Gastroenterologist.  That test came up negative for the return of cancer,  thankfully.  But he couldn’t have it done until he got clearance from the cardiologist, neurologist and pulmonologist.  His next surveillance EGD this fall, we need to get the same 3 clearances, but now we add his Oncologist - but I have gotten ahead of myself in this story.

We thought by the end of April he had exhausted his list of new doctors and new diagnoses. Unfortunately we were wrong.  He started having weight fluctuation - which we were tracking at the cardiologist’s request.  We suspected fluid retention.  He also had trouble sleeping because he was "focused on breathing". He never said he was short of breath - in fact he insisted he wasn’t short of breath. So we waited to see his primary care doctor. That was a mistake.

That appointment was on May 4th.  She recommended that he go straight to the ER.  He needed urgent testing with stat results and that is only obtained at the ER.  When we got to the ER the place was packed (normal for our hospital).  I thought we would have a long wait.  We didn’t.  They took him right away.  They promptly checked his oxygen levels and he was critically low.  He was started on oxygen and admitted, and stayed in the hospital for 7 days!!  (Yikes! They don’t keep anyone for 7 days anymore.) At first they diagnosed pneumonia, but later settled on fluid build up around his lungs - due to heart failure. They were also tracking abnormal blood work that his Oncologist was also tracking. In conjunction with his Oncologist’s review, he received 2 blood transfusion in the hospital and at discharge (the very next day) the Oncologist saw him. While anemia was known since his chemotherapy, it had not resolved.  So a bone marrow biopsy was done and the test results came back - a type of blood cancer.  As explained to us, it was a very slow growing type of cancer and was probably already there when Chemotherapy was started.  But Chemo sort of jump started the progression of this condition.

At this point in the story, my husband and I had become sort of numb to all the bad news.  He was off oxygen, he was feeling good again, eating and drinking well - feeling “cured” so to speak, and yet the health discoveries continued the mount up.

Believe it or not, there is a fortunate ending to the story. If you look for the positives, you usually can find some.  All of his diagnoses have treatments that allow him to maintain a “normal”  life again.  Even the blood cancer has an injection that prompts the bone marrow to make new blood cells and thereby avoid blood transfusions.  

I have said this over and over again.  Living in this time - and this place - (because we live near medical centers that provide state of the art medical care) - we are the luckiest people on earth. Great doctors, prompt medical care, exceptional treatment options ... you can’t ask for more than that as you approach 80 years of age.  My husband’s 80th birthday is this August.

He is doing well.  Of course, we take daily weight, blood pressure and oxygen checks to capture any change in his status.  Best to adjust things before being hospitalized for them.  We also keep oxygen in the condo - although he hasn’t needed it since a week after discharge.  But all is well right now in this household, so I guess that is why I felt I could write this post.

Will I be back to this blog?  I honestly don’t know.  I have been doing a lot of knitting, (A LOT) so I could probably do a post on that... and I have also been doing some yarn and pattern "retail therapy" (shopping you do to make yourself feel better).  My yarn stash is at a pretty high level right now.  

It either is me buying too much yarn  or the yarn is reproducing on its own. I think it is the latter. ðŸ˜€. 

At least we can both breathe freely once again.

Monday, February 9, 2026

Knitters, Your Mystery Awaits


 The idea of knitting with others is as old as knitting itself I would guess.  The evolution of a Knit-Along where everyone knits the same item became popular with the evolution of online groups and websites like Ravelry in the early 2000s.  A Mystery Knit-Along (MKA) is yet another younger evolution born from previous knitting groups.  In a MKA, the participants initially know limited information about a project (like it is: shawl, or sweater or scarf), yarn suggestions, knitting needle sizes  and guage. But nothing about the actual pattern is available until the first “clue” or segment of the pattern is released. Further clues are released on a regular schedule until the finished project is revealed.

In 2025 I joined my first Mystery Knit Along created by Stolen Stitches - a knitting vendor out of Ireland.  The designer and business owner is Carol Feller.  This site has it all: yarn, patterns, on line classes to support most patterns offered, several free instructional videos and a robust community website that houses the classes you have purchased and networking opportunities to interact with others who are working on the same pattern as you.  Last but not least, (at least in my mind), you get to listen to Ms. Feller's lovely lyrical Irish accented English on the video classes.  


The colors in these shawls are truer than in following pictures.


The Mystery Knit Along (MKA) for 2025 was a shawl.  I made two of them. The blue one is made from yarn I selected for this pattern from Stolen Stitches.  The white one is made from yarn I had in my stash.  I really enjoyed making both of them, but I made some rookie errors in the blue shawl which I felt compelled to correct them in the white one.   



The main error was size - I like larger shawls.  And since I used the wrong needle size, I got a shawlette.  Lovely but not what I wanted.  This was not the fault of the designer - but of a knitter (me) who has been at this for about 30 years - and used one size smaller needle thinking it wouldn't make THAT much of a difference.  Well, it did.



Onward to 2026!!

My yarn for the 2026 Mystery Knit Along. I am such a fan of greens!

The 2026 MKA begins tomorrow, February 10.  I enjoyed the first MKA so much that I signed up weeks ago for this one.  I have the right yarn and the right needles.  My yarn for this project has been spun into cakes. I am ready.  

If you join a group and purchase the yarn from Stolen Stitches, a lovely drawstring canvas bag 
comes with your order.  If you sign up for the event, but use your own yarn from your stash,
you are considered a digital member - you get the pattern only.  That is
a nice option if you have a yarn that is appropriate.

PS:  I get no compensation from Stolen Stitches for all the nice things I said about their business.  I am happy to promote businesses that exceed my expectations. But be aware, in our current political climate, products shipped to the US are fair game for the Trump “tax” ... I mean tariffs.  So everything costs more. 

Wednesday, January 14, 2026

The Line Jumper

So this blog post is about a line jumper - a crochet project that jumped the line - a line of perfectly wonderful knitting projects.  

The things I do for a “pretty face!”

But a bit about the line first.

I recently did a mini reorg of the pending knitting projects.  For the last few years, whenever possible I looked at new patterns that match my current yarn inventory rather than purchasing new yarn.  It just seemed the older I got, the more I worried I would never get to knit with some of my wonderful stash.  I am far from perfect at resisting purchases as yarn fairs are always pitfalls for my wallet.  But they have become small pitfalls as I am pretty successful at keeping limits on yarn purchases overall.

The ‘line up’ in question was created when I buddied up a yarn with a pattern and put them in a project bag. I have many such buddied pairs. And that was the problem.   I forgot what projects I have in those  very cute bags.  Many many forgotten projects because I couldn’t see them in the bag.  So I purchased a box of 2 1/2 gallon clear plastic bags at the grocery store, transferred waiting projects into them, and they are now on a shelf where they are totally visible as I enter the room ... all 20+ of them! (Geez, that is crazy.) When they get picked to start,  they then get assigned to one of my many project bags. The project(s) I am working on gets the attention first because it waited its turn in line.

Along comes a pretty face! A line jumper. A granny square design that I thought I would never see except in a blanket.  Granny squares I planned never to make again after the 1970s.  Seriously, how did that happen?

In November my cousin and sister visited.  My cousin was excited about a new project she wanted to do and wear next summer. At first I thought, “cute.”  Then I noticed, oh cotton!!  I have about 40 skeins of wonderful Pima Cotton in vibrant colors - without a buddy.  Could this pattern be the buddy for some of that yarn?  The pattern is call OMA Goodness Top. 

I looked it up on Ravelry.  A cotton lacy looking top over a white shell in summer.  I checked out the tops made by many others. Before you knew it, I pulled out that box of pima cotton hidden in my closet where all the unassigned yarn lives, and we were happily picking colors, mixing and matching, making decisions, etc. etc. etc. And some of that cotton went home with my cousin.  It was fun. It was also a “win-win.” I reduced the stash some and another yarn got a buddy.

I purchased the pattern, and it would have been fine if I stopped there. The cotton and the pattern would have been dropped in a clear plastic bag and taken its place on the shelf with the other “chosen.”  But no!!  Out came the crochet hooks as well, and I was off and running ... or rather crocheting.

Plans rapidly began to form in my mind as I crocheted.  I would bring the neck in some. (My neck is not my best feature.). I’d make the hem fall below my waist. (At 78 showing a little midriff is just not a good look.)  I will limit my color selections to a few:  2 shades of green and maybe 3 other colors - all on a white background.  Green is the theme that will tie the squares together taming the overall busy look a little bit.  Of the finished projects on Ravelry, the ones I liked best had limited colors or a theme.

Here are some the squares that I have completed.



In the flurry of activity caused by this pattern I ignored the little voices of caution.  Do you now have too many WIPS (works in progress)?  More WIPS than five - and little moves forward to completion for me.  No matter.  I will work out it out later to find out.  Of course, if another pretty face passes my way - I may need to re-think that number.



It's a slippery slope.

( Recently another line jumper - or two *sigh* - is making a push for my attention! Geez.  Six or seven WIPS isn’t too many, is it?)

More on that later.

A pretty face!


Sunday, January 11, 2026

Still knitting ... slowly, slowly.

Christmas finally cycled around to the end for us as of yesterday.  We host a yearly holiday party for a group of friends my husband has known for decades and who we see for gaming every month.  Yesterday was that gathering.


Our tree will come down today.  Holiday decorating has been minimized with each passing year so putting the decorations away takes very little time.  But getting the boxes back in the storage closet is what takes the time.  I do a “clean sweep” of that closet as part of storing Christmas away.  It is a pretty large walk in closet that by November is no longer “walk in.”  So a yearly clean out after the holiday seems appropriate.

Over the last year and a half my knitting has been minimized as well.  Surgery, doctor appointments, medical tests, physical therapy, normal household maintenance just kept building into a mountain of tasks ending the year with Christmas prep  ... it really socked a hole in available time and energy.  But now we are in the slow season and medical demands are slowing.  Knitting and blogging should pick up speed - I hope! 

As usual the yarn color is not quite right.  But the bead color is perfect and the beads are exactly
the same shade as the yarn in person.

Looking at the possible works in progress I could pick up - this project seemed like a good place to start.  This is yarn from deep deep stash maybe 20 years ago.  I believe it is Plymouth Yarn - super wash worsted weight wool.  I don’t seem to have the paper sleeve, so I am guessing.  And I may have blogged about the project previously.  
  
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This yarn has a story.  At least 20 years ago I was traveling to Ocean City, Maryland to visit with family. I researched in advance that a yarn store was just north of Ocean City and since I was early arriving at the shore, I had time to swing by the shop.  

The shop was so congested with yarn you could hardly focus on anything.  A bit discouraging.  But this sandy color did catch my eye.  And it was gently variegated in intensity - as the sand at the shore is dark and light in color too.  So I snapped it up and I found perfectly matched beads for it.  I didn’t have a pattern but the yarn just seemed a perfect purchase for this ocean trip.



And a pattern did finally show up a few years ago.  Set Sail Shawl by Erin Johnson.  It is a pretty simple design but its name seemed to fit the theme.  It seemed to say - “Pick me, I am the one for your sandy yarn!”  When I stopped working on it, I had only about 10 inches out of 61 inches in length completed.  When I found it packed away, again it seemed to say “Pick me.  I am the one to help you return to your much loved hobby, because I am simple to do and as you can see my beautiful sandy shading in this pattern.”  Do my yarns talk to me like this?  Not routinely, but it certainly seemed like a knitting command from the knitting gods. 

I have more to tell with another project in the works - and a fun tracking tool I purchased at a fair last November.  This tracking tool seemed also to be just the right thing to keep me focused.

Next Time!

Saturday, January 3, 2026

KNEE UPDATE and hopeful a new beginning for 2026

Here I am 4 months out from knee replacement surgery!  I am very very pleased with this out come even if it isn’t a totally symptom free knee at this point.  And I accept the fact that leg exercises - and many other kinds of exercises will be necessary to recover and then maintain for the rest of whatever years are left to me.

Wow - that last statement sounded down.  It isn’t.  Seriously, I am so very grateful to have made it to 78 with all my faculties and now a renewed energy thanks to medical science.  So the statement whatever “years I have left” are just a nod to the reality that I made it to an older age and a desire to make those remaining years as positive and healthy as I possibly can.

Our Christmas was wonderful!!  My family celebrates on Christmas Eve.  That frees up Christmas Day for my daughter-in-law and my son to visit with her family.  And this year my daughter brought a date - a man she has been seeing for almost a year.  It was a full house and it was joyful.  And, of course, there was my grand daughter.  You can’t be too down when it is Christmas and she is around.  I can honestly say that my typical Christmas sadness (due to loosing both parents around the Christmas holiday) never entered my mind the whole evening.  It was wonderful to have such positive memories to replace the old sad ones that previously lingered through this season. 

Now on to 2026!  I am now focused on a few simple desires for this year.

  1. I need to return to blogging.  I miss it when I don’t blog.  Blogging reminds me of all the things in my life I am grateful for.  I tend to ignore gratitude when I am not blogging.
  2. I need to cluster our medical appointments better.  My husband and I have a lot of those.  I attend all his because he is blind so everything is double for me.  In the past I would limit appointments to one a day.  Doing that ate up our whole month.  Going forward I plan to group appointments into one week of the month.  We will see how that goes, but it is a goal. 
  3. I need to focus on my health overall more - not just my legs.  That includes cooking better options and exercising more than just my legs.  Getting into some kind of walking routine will also be a focus.
  4. I need to feed my knitting/crochet/weaving part of my life.  And if I make point #3 happen, point #4 will happen too. 
Notice - these are not resolutions or goals.  It is simply what I desire to do. And actually they are what I used to do before my knee became the focus of everything in my life.  Having harnessed the knee pain has made so many other things possible!  A perfect example?  This Christmas I made Christmas cookies!  It has been years since I did that.  Maybe a decade.

And I have so many fiber knitting plans.  That creative spark seemed to die out earlier in 2025 when so much of my life was centered around pain and how to live with it.  I will put together another post on just those plans.  

Other posts are perking in my brain again.  More to come. Promise.

Thanks to those who return time and time again.  I don’t deserve such faithful readers - but I am totally grateful for them

Saturday, December 27, 2025

2025 Reading List - Final

At the beginning of 2025 I saw a book list on a blog that I follow - 5 Acres and a Dream.  

This was the first time I encountered a blogger’s book list. Leigh’s 2024 books list was HUGE.  Suddenly I wondered about my own reading/viewing habits.

My list for 2025 was born. I added a number rating to help me remember my impressions of the author’s work without a wordy review. 

A few notes about my reading list.  

  • Kindle books: My Kindle is filled with various kinds escapism fiction obtained through Kindle Unlimited.  Kindle Unlimited is offered through Amazon and is a monthly subscription service.  Many of the titles on my Kindle list are only offered in Kindle versions and frequently are independently released by the author.  While this usually results in less proofing and editing, it does provide many exciting hours of enjoyment that would be missed if you limit your reading to only traditional publishing.
  • Audible books: My Audible books are a mix of escapism, best sellers, biographies, history, thrillers, etc. 
  • Actual books generally are reference books. And this year there are only 2 titles.  (Much to my surprise.)
It is common for me to have 3 books going at one time - one in each type.  I love long stories so finding an author that provides 9 or 10 books following the same characters in a continuing story is great fun for me.  Although I consider my book choices eclectic,  End-of-the-World, apocalypse, EMP, zombie fiction seem to dominate my reading choices.  Escapism is my entertainment.  Improving my brain is a low priority.  ðŸ˜‚

Numbers Rating Definitions:

(1) - Awful:  Didn’t finish - sometimes they are so awful that they didn’t even make the list! God forbid someone see a title that was actually trash - and wondered why I thought there was any reason to start reading it.

(2) - Disappointing:  Finished it but will not follow the author.

(3) - Ok: Probably will not follow the author unless the characters grow on me.

(4) - Very good:  Enjoyable. Fun. Informative. Probably will read other books by this author.

(5) - Exceptional.  Can’t wait for the next book.  Will haunt this author’s works going forward

*********** 

THE 2025 LIST

Actual Books 

Thriving Beyond Fifty - Will Harlow Mac, MCSP, Cert. MA - I follow him on his YouTube and he is excellent. 

In the Shadow of Man - Jane Goodall.  In process. 


Audio Books (mostly from Audible.Com)

Glock Grannies: Cozy Mystery, Book 1 - Shannon VanBergen - (2)

Baskets and Beignets: Miss Fortune Mysteries, Book 27 - Jana Deleon  (4)

The Naturalist - Andrew Mayne (1)

Night Watch - Jayne Anne Phillips (1)

The President’s Daughter - James Patterson and Bill Clinton (3)

Conclave - Robert Harris (4)

Wild Storm - Richard Castle (3)

Big Dumb Eyes - Nate Bargatze (3)

Oracle - Andrew Pyper (3-4)

Oracle 2 The Dreamland Murders - Andrew Pyper (4)

Oracle 3 Murder at Grandview - Andrew Pyper (3)

All or Nothing - Michael Wolf - (5)

Crocodile on the Sandbank - Dramatized Adaption - Elizabeth Peters (5)

Dungeon Crawler Carl - Matt Dinniman (4)

Carl’s Doomsday Scenario - Matt Dinniman (3)

Nobody’s Girl - Virginia Roberts Giuffre (*)

107 Days - Kamala Harris ( * )

America Falls - Scott Medbury - In process


Kindle Books (mostly from Kindle Unlimited found on Amazon)

Chaos Gains: A Post-Apocalyptic Survival Thriller, Book 5 - Harley Tate - (4)

Chaos Evolves: A Post-Apocalyptic Survival Thriller, Book 6 - Harley Tate - (4)

Hope Sparks: A Post-Apocalyptic Survival Thriller, Book 7 - Harley Tate - (5)

Hope Stumbles: A Post-Apocalyptic Survival Thriller, Book 8 - Harley Tate - (5)

Hope Survives: A Post-Apocalyptic Survival thriller, Book 9 - Harley Tate - (5)

The Lotus Key: An Eden Black Archaeological Thriller, Book 6- Luke Richardson - ( 4 )

Gravewater Lake  - A. M. Strong and Sonya Sargent (3)

Shelter in Place: Frozen Blackout - An EMP Post Apocalypse Prepper, Book 1 - Clay Wise (5)

Off The Grid: Frozen Blackout - An EMP Post Apocalypse Prepper, Book 2 Clay Wise (5)

The Road Ahead: Frozen Blackout - An EMP Post Apocalyptic Prepper, Book 3 Clay Wise (5)

Neighborhood Watch Books 1-10 EE Isherwood (5)

No Small Caper: A Small Town Cozy Mystery - Cynthia Hickman - (4)

Caper Goes Missing: A Small Town Cozy Mystery - Cynthia Hickman - (3)

A Strange Game for Caper: A Small Town Cozy Mystery - Cynthia Hickman - (3)

Capers Dark Adventure: A Small Town Cozy Mystery - Cynthia Hickman (3)

Caper Finds a Clue: A Small Town Cozy Mystery - Cynthia Hickman (3)

Caper Steals Christmas: A Small Town Cozy Mystery - Cynthia Hickman (3)

Broken Bayou - Jennifer Moorhead (4)

Antarctica Station - A. G. Riddle (5)

Deeper Than the Dead - Debra Webb (4)

After the End - 7 Book Series - Sam J Fires (5)

EMP After the Lights: An EMP Post Apocalypse Prepper Survival Thriller - W. Stone (5)

Not Another Zombie Book - D. B. Randelia (3)

Last Mom Standing - Mary Jane Owen (4)

The Tox Shot: The ‘Z’ Word - R. S. Merritt (4)

The Sox Shot: No Rest for the Bitten - R. S Merritt (4)

The Last Patient of the Night - Gary Gerlacher (5)

The Faulty Bloodline - Gary  Gerlacher (5)

Sin City Treachery - Gary Gerlacher - in process

While these lists aren't embarrassingly short, they aren’t as long as I anticipated.  I think that is for 2 reasons: 

  1. I stream a lot of stuff on TV.  After dinner when I am settling down in my chair, I stream movies and TV shows on Netflix and Amazon Prime.    I have a list of interesting selections waiting to be viewed on both streaming platforms. I considered keeping another list of titled streamed, but decided against it.  That list would probably be embarrassing as it might be longer than the combination of my reading lists. 🥹 
  2. I probably missed a few titles on my book lists.
(*) Two Books were very important to me this year:
  • Nobody’s Girl:  The most impactful and memorable book I read this year was Nobody’s Girl by Virginia Roberts Giuffre.  Assigning a number rating to this book seemed wrong. It raised so many emotions.  It was a riveting story and sad at the same time - knowing that in the end her personal history that she fought so hard to overcome finally caught up with her and ended in suicide.  There is no number that captures Virginia Giuffre’s story. But the words “Fearless Truth Teller” does fit! 
  • 107 Days:  Needles to say, I was a supporter of the Democratic ticket in the last election  - regardless of who was running.  I thought hearing Kamala’s telling of her experiences as she tried to gain the presidency in an impossibly short time was worth hearing.  I was so very disappointed when she didn’t win.  But I don’t consider this loss hers alone.  The Democratic Party and Joe Bidden had a hand in her loss as well.  She is a warrior and she did the impossible nearly winning in the popular vote.  

I enjoyed creating this list in 2025, but I am pretty sure I won’t keep it up for 2026.  Things that sound interesting to do in January, often loose their luster for me by June.  I am just not that disciplined any more.  This year, 2026, I will turn 79.  That is perilously close to 80, for gosh sakes.  The only thing I am disciplined about any more is my nightly leg exercises - and that is only because I need those 2 appendages to get me from point A to point B unaided and with the least amount of pain!  I was forced to do 'the cane and the walker thing' for about 1 1/2  years, and it was so very depressing.  Now that I am back on my two legs - I intend to stay that way. And staying that way involves keeping strong legs.

Getting back into the blogging habit is something I hope to do in 2026. 

Happy New Year to all.




                                            



Thursday, October 9, 2025

Three Steps Forward - Two Steps Back

I saw the surgeon at 2 weeks post surgery, and he was very happy with the knee.  Healing nicely, great extension and great flexion for this stage of healing.  In fact, I am driving!  I got permission to drive just a little 2 weeks after surgery. Unheard of!  But I was off opioids and my knee function was good.  Just shows what state-of-the-art medical technology and surgical procedures as well as a highly skilled surgeon can do.  I am still icing and using Tylenol and walking with a knee sleeve on. In the condo I do walk without any aids mostly.  But when I go out of the condo - even just for the mail. I have the cane with me. Of, course, I am still in PT.  But I am still in awe of the fact that my new right knee is a perfect match to the left knee I was born with. I thank the Mako company for creating the match - and the Mako robot for helping to make a perfect space during surgery to get that new knee “installed."

But my post surgical progress has not been all sun shine and roses! 

With my anemia, my oxygen-carrying blood cell counts and my iron counts have been below normal since my 2023 kidney surgery.  Just before surgery all those counts had greatly improved - some into the normal range.  I was at the best levels in 2 years.  I was stoked!!  Unfortunately with surgery you bleed!  With this surgery, they dipped rather dramatically again.  In fact they dipped lower than I had been for 2 years.  And my body energy made that evident.  That with a UTI I didn’t catch for a few days and lack of sleep from the nerve regeneration pain taking place in my knee at night, I was pretty much a “walking dead” person! 

My surgeon gave me meds for the night time pain - so that got fixed.  The UTI got antibiotics for 5 days so that got fixed. But the bloods counts still dragged on very low so physically I was dragging myself around as well.  Once it was confirmed by the hematologist that my body wasn’t replacing red blood cells after 3 weeks post surgery - they ordered injections of a hormone that will stimulate the production of red blood cells. That is not a forever medicine - just an intervention to give my body a kick start to handle this process on its own.

So I am moving forward, healing and improving.  The world of possibilities is once again ahead of me.

One of those possibilities is knitting.  You would think with all this rest time that I would be knitting, knitting, knitting.  Nope!  It seemed like too much work to even hold the needles and do garter stitch. (Yes, I was that fatigued. I considered breathing my achievement most days during those very fatigued periods.). But that cloud have begun to clear.  Sunday I knitted a row on a shawl.  It was a very long row and it was just garter - but I did it. Today I started planning a second shawl with yarn I got from Stolen Stitches out of Ireland.  I joined a club
call Seasons.  With each season you got a new pattern and the yarn for that pattern. You also got access to the videos that supported you step by step.  I love, love, love this company.  However, below are the pictures and the tale of the summer season pattern and yarn.


So the pattern was a vest that could transition into a shawl.  A rather ingenious design I thought.
I actually was sort of on the fence if I liked this pattern or not.
But it did have nice drape and it isn’t body hugging which I liked. 
So I cast on.



I decided I would do Holden.  This is a pattern I have done before. And when
I wear it I get a lot of compliments.  I planned to do it one more time, only larger.
And I thought this club yarn would be a good choice for the repeat.  

But I was not inspired doing a repeat this time.  I checked my patterns once again.  Rheinlust
was another pattern I wanted to do and it was not a repeat. I think I have settled on
this pattern for that lovely club yarn.

 So with little to no actual knitting accomplished, the planning for my knitting has begun.  I think that is an indication of energy returned - at least I am not focused on just breathing anymore.  And soon I will frog that small knitted piece and cast on this beautiful pattern that has been in my stack of patterns for years - literally years!

So while there have been some steps backwards in the last month - there has been forward movement - and I think I am gaining ground.