Is it a sign that my life has changed dramatically in some very quiet way? The blog, which once held my link to the world beyond my four walls, that blog now competes for time and space with other activities.
It is like the vacuum of time left by my mom's move has been filled with a new set of commitments, some of which look the same but are just ordered differently than before.
I often said that I could filled my days with activities that took me from the house, but because mom was here, I had to hold back. Now she is not here, and the subtle creep of those activities sneaking in are filling up my days.
I think the next big challenge is to put constraints around my life, put limits on how I use time and keep things more simple. For so long mom was my constraint. It kept me in check. It kept things simple, direct, focused.
But now I remember ... It is a great failing of mine to over commit, to fill up all the spaces of my life with activity and not leave enough time to "just be." And I also remember ... that behavior adds stress to my life.
So was this a hiatus, or just a wake up call that I need to be better at using my time.
Anyway, I have missed being here.
Next blog post? I got my dress for the wedding!